Saturday, 1 August 2015

Public And Private

In the age of the internet, everyone is concerned by how they are perceived by the world. When I was growing up it was mostly about gossip, having photographic evidence of your missteps was rare, video evidence even more rare.
Now, especially if your in the public eye, you have to think very hard about something before you put it out online because once you do it's out there and it's not going away. It makes the already self concious uber cautious, and to me it's always felt a little fake and forced.
When I had a traditional publisher I was much more concerned about it because my actions affected other people. Now that I do this on my own it all only looks bad on me. But sometimes in an effort to not make myself look like a jackass I feel like I'm not being authentic and that makes me inaccessable, and that's not what I want.
Of course I'm not going to air my dirty laundry all over the internet, that's just not part of my personality. But in an effort to connect more with you, dear reader, I'm going to try to be more authentic. I was going to write honest but this isn't really about honesty, it's about showing you who I am as a person as well as a writer. Maybe that's a huge mistake on my part, but I have found that I personally have connected more with authors that have shown a bit of themselves as people (I am hugely inspired by Laurell K Hamilton's blog and RM Gilmore, if you're wondering).

This also came about because of my current sidebar work in progress (WIP) that has nothing to do with Katrine and The Afflicted series. This new main character is very raw emotionally and writing her is bringing out some things in me emotionally that have been dormant for a while, but I think it's time for me to allow that side of myself to resurface.

My Mother's death and having my daughter have changed me quite signifigantly. I have lost and gained many things, but I think my unique perspective is something I can share with the world.

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